A few years later from the last post, the owner of this blog has returned with a heartbroken self as being torn and fallen on the cold hard ground.
Since 2011, I was having a great moment that I had found my best soulmate ever since. Happily ever after did exist, we were closely tied to each other by sharing every single thing that happened in our lives. We did a lot of girl stuffs together such as working on beauty, buying clothes and sharing our ups and downs all days long.
As time passed, a whim of negativity occurred within my heart like the waves of seas excessively roaring and pulling me down. And now, I've come to realize that I'm completely drown into the deep blue sea. And that goddamn negativity is inferiority and insecurity which have been dwelt in me since young.
Inferiority and insecurity locked me inside a very dark room and led me to putting on the trigger of a gun and shooting at my close ones constantly. When they got injured, they stood up, and kept coming forward to unlock a handcuff on me, tear a rope on my legs apart and break the door in order to rescue me from this darkest place. *chains are broken* I was finally set free physically, but I found out that I had been surviving in an unstable and negative situation for so long, the dark room had built in a magnetic addition in my deepest self. Therefore, I had been going into the room back and forth no matter how many times and hard they tried rescuing me. Nevertheless, I once had decided to give up on myself but they were standing outside the room, accompanying me to hear my screams.
On the contrary, I'd never appreciated whatever they had done and thought that I needed the dark room as my comfort zone, and hence jealousy, hatred and sadness have come across my soul, it was all shown to attack them because I couldn't take it when I saw how good they were, their strengths have somehow become a reflection of my weaknesses.
Today, I've understood the fact of everything they've done would be in vain if I myself were never willing to be courageous to stand up, walk up from the door and not to turn my face around. But I can't figure out any solutions that really work on me. Hmm. I guess I really need to stay alone for some time and get myself immersed into a solitary period.
And, I have pushed them away from where they were. I can't take a sight on them as I'm really disgusted by myself. This is the saddest and most difficult decision I've ever made. But I have no guts to face them, I have no other ways to listen to my own voices and positive mindset without a quiet moment.
SOS: need someone/something to pick up all the broken pieces of me, fix it, and revive its beauty.
Monday, 31 August 2015
Sunday, 22 July 2012
Jesus is my true Vine!
Dear
Jesus,
You are
exalted on high, I praise your holy name for You're the King of Kings. I
really thank you with enormous gratitude for your unfailing love and salvation
on all the mankind that whoever believes in you. Although you possessed the
very nature image of God, but didn't consider equality with God. Whereas, you
took the very nature image of a servant, being made like human likeness in
order to demonstrate us that you search our heart. At
least, I truly understand and feel that I'm valuable for you, so I shall not
perish.
I have
really been entangled by civilian affairs. I just can't cope with its issues by
my own strength and wisdom. Every
aspect of my life seems running toward demise. Precious
relationships gradually shut down day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute
and second by second without interaction like never lasting. History repeats itself since a decade ago. I really get tired of resolving its crisis that cause
negative consequences.
Consensus is never achieved when different opinions arise between my parent and me, therefore it sometimes triggers to arguments.
Corruption from the government is an unending task.
Merdeka (independence) wish is for civility to infuse, enlighten and
become the political culture of Malaysia. Going by what the nation saw and
heard in the recent by-election, shame and disgust filled me and thoughts of merdeka could not have been further from
my heart and mind.
As days
passed, I figured out that I somehow prioritized other matters instead of
you.
Christ Jesus, I'm sorry for I previously was being an amateur who engaged in studying for pleasure,
so I should put in extra effort to study in order to become a contributor of society and civilize our politics if we are possible to do that in future, instead of doing nothing and backstabbing the disadvantages of my country. Although I don't compromise what they are doing but love them, not to complain it anymore and pray for it, because we will not know to be grateful when we keep complaining. Thank God that I'm born in Malaysia, Malaysia is a multicultural country which consists of Chinese, Malays, Indians and the rest of races living together, therefore majority of nations are bilingual. Except the governing system and politics' issues, everything is still very intriguing in this country.
Apart from these, the greatest obstacle kept interrupting me
to step into a better obedience toward you. I was unconsciously seeking a selfish love for my own desire
so it's time to gaze upon you again for problems are diminished when God
becomes my priority. You always embrace me by your nailed and merciful
hands.
John
15
1 “I
am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener.
2He cuts
off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does
bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.
3 You are
already clean because of the word I have spoken to you.
4 Remain in
me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must
remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
5 “I am the
vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear
much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
6 If you do
not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such
branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned.
7 If you
remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it
will be done for you.
8 This is
to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be
my disciples.
A lifetime of been pruning in order to
grow better as the branches bearing much fruit without thorns entangle its
growth.
Seriously, I felt it had been slashing by a double edged sword, but I
eventually know that is a sign revealing that something you need to cut off
from me. I shouldn't have
held it tightly, I was so stubborn but I didn't realize before and I should have known that you want me to testify you are my God in my family.
Oh Lord, thanks for
taking my rebelliousness away so I obey you getting rid of the thing I clung
to.
I found relief
abiding in You and hence I hereby
declare that:"You are my refuge when I am weary and burdened."
You're the light
as the Holy Spirit illuminates people's soul, heart and mind to see your
righteousness.
AMEN!
You are
exalted on high, I praise your holy name for You're the King of Kings. I
really thank you with enormous gratitude for your unfailing love and salvation
on all the mankind that whoever believes in you. Although you possessed the
very nature image of God, but didn't consider equality with God. Whereas, you
took the very nature image of a servant, being made like human likeness in
order to demonstrate us that you search our heart. At
least, I truly understand and feel that I'm valuable for you, so I shall not
perish.
I have
really been entangled by civilian affairs. I just can't cope with its issues by
my own strength and wisdom. Every
aspect of my life seems running toward demise. Precious
relationships gradually shut down day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute
and second by second without interaction like never lasting. History repeats itself since a decade ago. I really get tired of resolving its crisis that cause
negative consequences.
Consensus is never achieved when different opinions arise between my parent and me, therefore it sometimes triggers to arguments.
Consensus is never achieved when different opinions arise between my parent and me, therefore it sometimes triggers to arguments.
Corruption from the government is an unending task.
Merdeka (independence) wish is for civility to infuse, enlighten and
become the political culture of Malaysia. Going by what the nation saw and
heard in the recent by-election, shame and disgust filled me and thoughts of merdeka could not have been further from
my heart and mind.
1M'sia programme is to strive for national unity and ethnic
harmony among all the races, but there is no equality as they preserve the special privileges for Malays and bumiputras in accordance with article 153
of federal constituition.
As days
passed, I figured out that I somehow prioritized other matters instead of
you.
I
believe it's a lesson from you to learn how to love my enemies more, to
recognize that you came to the world is to be suffered for the Kingdom of God
and to accept all the people around me without conditions.
Christ Jesus, I'm sorry for I previously was being an amateur who engaged in studying for pleasure,
so I should put in extra effort to study in order to become a contributor of society and civilize our politics if we are possible to do that in future, instead of doing nothing and backstabbing the disadvantages of my country. Although I don't compromise what they are doing but love them, not to complain it anymore and pray for it, because we will not know to be grateful when we keep complaining. Thank God that I'm born in Malaysia, Malaysia is a multicultural country which consists of Chinese, Malays, Indians and the rest of races living together, therefore majority of nations are bilingual. Except the governing system and politics' issues, everything is still very intriguing in this country.
Christ Jesus, I'm sorry for I previously was being an amateur who engaged in studying for pleasure,
so I should put in extra effort to study in order to become a contributor of society and civilize our politics if we are possible to do that in future, instead of doing nothing and backstabbing the disadvantages of my country. Although I don't compromise what they are doing but love them, not to complain it anymore and pray for it, because we will not know to be grateful when we keep complaining. Thank God that I'm born in Malaysia, Malaysia is a multicultural country which consists of Chinese, Malays, Indians and the rest of races living together, therefore majority of nations are bilingual. Except the governing system and politics' issues, everything is still very intriguing in this country.
Apart from these, the greatest obstacle kept interrupting me
to step into a better obedience toward you. I was unconsciously seeking a selfish love for my own desire
so it's time to gaze upon you again for problems are diminished when God
becomes my priority. You always embrace me by your nailed and merciful
hands.
John 15
1 “I
am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener.
2He cuts
off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does
bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.
3 You are
already clean because of the word I have spoken to you.
4 Remain in
me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must
remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
5 “I am the
vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear
much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
6 If you do
not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such
branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned.
7 If you
remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it
will be done for you.
8 This is
to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be
my disciples.
Sunday, 12 February 2012
Marvellous
What do you see?
Yes!
It is a love-shaped moon photographed by my friend and without editing.
God made two great lights - the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars.
[Genesis 1:16]
Glory unto the exalted LORD! The moonlight is bright and shinning at me,
laying in my bed.
It is incredibly fabulous!
How I wonder His magnificent creations.
He is great and most worthy of praise! :D
I'd like to speak of the splendour of the King.
Sunday, 22 January 2012
Insomnia
In the middle of nights around
And I'm still ..............
unable to sleep.
Typically, I was a person who could sleep easily but since a few weeks ago,
Insomnia, you annoy me.
Insomnia, I'm awakened by nightmares.
Insomnia, you make my tears shed in the middle of nights.
Insomnia, I grumble in the morning due to inadequate slumber.
As a human being, I have emotions.
Why did it happen till that bad as I never predicted?
How come there are so many issues torment me?
I totally lost faith in mankind.
Who else could I rely on?
Oh Lord Jesus, my soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death.
I'm really collapsed.
I tried to be optimistic and positive, but things became worse and complicated.
Dilemma from various aspects, I just realised there is nobody able to help me up.
But, you understand and you mean everything for me.
I couldn't survive without you.
I'm grateful that you embrace me into your arms. Thank you for your promises and words. :)
Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies. [Psalms 36:5]
Sunday, 25 December 2011
Holy Night
On 21st July 1969, astronauts went up the moon. President Nixon of USA proudly proclaimed: "In the history of mankind, this is the greatest achievement." The next day, his good friend named Dr. Billy Graham told him, "Mr. President, the greatest achievement in the history of mankind is not going to the moon, but it is the birth of God's Son, Jesus Christ on this earth 2,000 years ago."
The birth of Jesus is the new beginning of the history of mankind in the modern Century.
Alright, then let's ride a time aircraft, get back to 1st century (2 millennium ago). ;D
Perhaps you've heard it for uncountable times, I'll just fast forward okay? (shushes everybody up) :P
In Bethlehem in Judea, A babe was born in a manger named Jesus Christ, it is indeed a good tidings for us.
But do we really understand how many hardships He had been gone through?
After Jesus was born, King Herod heard this and he felt disturbed, therefore He decided to murder this child without hesitations, and it was exactly fulfilled what the LORD had said through the prophet: "Out of Egypt, I called my son."
Hello! Jesus was just an infant at the moment, What do you think if A king were afraid of an infant?
It sounds like so ridiculous but King Herod was really anxious due to Jesus' existence, it was a menace for King Herod. But literally, this is just the beginning of hardships.
3 decades later, Jesus was baptised & began to preach for 3 years. He had been persecuted by the Jews, betrayed by His beloved disciple- Juda, arrested by the Roman Emperor, whipped by the ruthless soldiers, insulted by the people. The Denials of Peter, The Crucifixion etc...
We couldn't imagine how Jesus struggled throughout his death (Matthew 26:36-46).
He said, "It is finished." crucifying on the cross. Subsequently, he bowed his head down and gave up his spirit.
and yet He liberated the yoke of slaves for setting our soul free.
May His sacrifice touch our heart every moment & Holy Spirit anoint us to live like Jesus Christ.
The holy God was humbly born in the world which is full of sins.
The holy God became an infant that we could embrace in our hands.
The holy God lived with ungodly mankind.
The Crucifixion, The Resurrection, The Salvation, The Forgiveness, The Unfailing Love unto mankind.
I just hope to love Him with all my heart, my soul & my mind & imitate His image eternally to become a fruitful disciple which bears very much fruit. (The fruit of the Spirit & the Light)
The birth of JESUS became Holy Night. :')
Thanks to The Son of God for you're magnificent!
Lord Jesus, you're the radiance of God's glory.
The birth of Jesus is the new beginning of the history of mankind in the modern Century.
Alright, then let's ride a time aircraft, get back to 1st century (2 millennium ago). ;D
Perhaps you've heard it for uncountable times, I'll just fast forward okay? (shushes everybody up) :P
But do we really understand how many hardships He had been gone through?
After Jesus was born, King Herod heard this and he felt disturbed, therefore He decided to murder this child without hesitations, and it was exactly fulfilled what the LORD had said through the prophet: "Out of Egypt, I called my son."
Hello! Jesus was just an infant at the moment, What do you think if A king were afraid of an infant?
It sounds like so ridiculous but King Herod was really anxious due to Jesus' existence, it was a menace for King Herod. But literally, this is just the beginning of hardships.
3 decades later, Jesus was baptised & began to preach for 3 years. He had been persecuted by the Jews, betrayed by His beloved disciple- Juda, arrested by the Roman Emperor, whipped by the ruthless soldiers, insulted by the people. The Denials of Peter, The Crucifixion etc...
We couldn't imagine how Jesus struggled throughout his death (Matthew 26:36-46).
He said, "It is finished." crucifying on the cross. Subsequently, he bowed his head down and gave up his spirit.
JESUS = He saves / the LORD saves
CHRIST = Anointed, the Greek translation of the Hebrew word translated “Messiah”
( John 1:41 , Psalms 2:2 )
Prince of Peace has revived!!! Christ is the LORD!!!
He has accomplished the ultimate goal in His entire life.
His birth brought a hope unto mankind.
His resurrection brought everlasting life for whoever believes in Him so we'll not perish.
He was born in a manger which towards the salvation of cross, CHRIST = Anointed, the Greek translation of the Hebrew word translated “Messiah”
( John 1:41 , Psalms 2:2 )
Prince of Peace has revived!!! Christ is the LORD!!!
He has accomplished the ultimate goal in His entire life.
His birth brought a hope unto mankind.
His resurrection brought everlasting life for whoever believes in Him so we'll not perish.
and yet He liberated the yoke of slaves for setting our soul free.
May His sacrifice touch our heart every moment & Holy Spirit anoint us to live like Jesus Christ.
The holy God was humbly born in the world which is full of sins.
The holy God became an infant that we could embrace in our hands.
The holy God lived with ungodly mankind.
The Crucifixion, The Resurrection, The Salvation, The Forgiveness, The Unfailing Love unto mankind.
I just hope to love Him with all my heart, my soul & my mind & imitate His image eternally to become a fruitful disciple which bears very much fruit. (The fruit of the Spirit & the Light)
The birth of JESUS became Holy Night. :')
Thanks to The Son of God for you're magnificent!
Lord Jesus, you're the radiance of God's glory.
Friday, 2 December 2011
Worship unto Yahweh
Dear Father in Heaven,
I raise my hands up to praise Your name for You're holy!
You reign in life for eternity.
Let the Universe, Planets, Sun, Stars & Mankind say:" Yahweh, you're exalted!"
You're unfailing GOD, Your love's unending & Your word is eternal,
therefore it stands firm in the Heaven.
Oh LORD, I now cast all my burdens upon you for You care for me,
I'm willing to bow down before Your throne.
Thank You for Your salvation unto mankind & even me,
setting my soul free from the yoke of servants.
Now I commit,
I wanna love and serve You with all my heart, my life & my soul for you've first loved me.
I trust in You no matter how afflictions attack or frustrate me for You never abandon us,
as You promised:" So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
May Your Holy Spirit anoint me, I'd humbly walk with You so I'll serve You without anxieties as
a soldier doesn't get entangled in civilian affairs. Just gazing upon JESUS & Your holy name!
Pray in JESUS's name, AMEN!
Perhaps the days seem bad currently, but God has his own plan for everything happens in our life. This is how peaceful when we realise the blessing from GOD comes to us after afflictions, and how joyful once we know we are all in His amazing plan. His plans are because His plans are very unexpected, unpredictable, awesome, amazing etc...
Well, He's indeed indescribable., but I do believe one thing. It's all for His Glory!
Let's never cease worshipping our exalted GOD in the spirit and in truth!
Worship does exceed all the praises and prayers; Worship is to enjoy the presence of God, love Him
Worship does exceed all the praises and prayers; Worship is to enjoy the presence of God, love Him
& offer our whole body for Him as a living sacrifice.
YAHWEH, Holy is Your name. Hallelujah!
Thursday, 17 November 2011
How Great Is Our GOD?! :D
跟某人谈话以后，我决定在这篇文章写华语。（自己懂是谁啦）:P
在这篇文章前，我希望大家耐心地使用你生命里的仅有20分钟去看。谢谢！:)
想问大家，我们人类聪明吗？
世界人口多少？地球又有多大？那么宇宙又有多浩瀚呢？
现在就给大家看一看。
看起来比我们的地球（Earth)。但是比起
地球仅不过是微不足道。
跟太阳比较，地球就只是一粒沙；
跟Arcturus这颗星星而言，很抱歉地说：“地球就只是一粒细菌”。
那么就不需要跟 Antares （双星，在天蝎座中最亮的）比较了。
上帝的创造美妙吗？Great ? （请大家在继续往下读前，听一听这首诗歌）留心聆听，开口赞美神。
是的，我们的上帝真的非常伟大，
他让我们可用口去敬拜，赞美这位尊贵尊荣的神！
可是不但只是人类要赞美他，如经上记载：诗篇 148篇
Speaker: An acclaimed Pastor = Pastor Louie Giglio
上帝创造的宇宙是超乎我们人所有限的想象能力，无法测量他的测度。
因神的荣美无法描述，我们口舌难以形容，但是要记住这个最重要的事：
圣父、圣子、圣灵：他爱你！:-D
Verses :
神造萬物，各按其時成為美好，又將永生（原文是永遠）安置在世人心裡。然而 神從始至終的作為，人不能參透。（传道书 3：11）
在这篇文章前，我希望大家耐心地使用你生命里的仅有20分钟去看。谢谢！:)
想问大家，我们人类聪明吗？
世界人口多少？地球又有多大？那么宇宙又有多浩瀚呢？
现在就给大家看一看。
Pluto - 冥王星
Mercury - 水星
Mars - 火星
Venus - 金星
Jupiter - 木星
Saturn - 土星
Uranus - 天王星
Neptun - 海王星
跟太阳比较，地球就只是一粒沙；
跟Arcturus这颗星星而言，很抱歉地说：“地球就只是一粒细菌”。
那么就不需要跟 Antares （双星，在天蝎座中最亮的）比较了。
上帝的创造美妙吗？Great ? （请大家在继续往下读前，听一听这首诗歌）留心聆听，开口赞美神。
是的，我们的上帝真的非常伟大，
他让我们可用口去敬拜，赞美这位尊贵尊荣的神！
可是不但只是人类要赞美他，如经上记载：诗篇 148篇
148:1 你們要讚美耶和華！從天上讚美耶和華，在高處讚美他！
148:2 他的眾使者都要讚美他！他的諸軍都要讚美他！
148:3 日頭月亮，你們要讚美他！放光的星宿，你們都要讚美他！
148:4 天上的天和天上的水，你們都要讚美他！
148:5 願這些都讚美耶和華的名！因他一吩咐便都造成。
咦？这不是都在说宇宙所有的星宿吗？它们到底如何赞美神呢？
（请看以下的短片）
Speaker: An acclaimed Pastor = Pastor Louie Giglio
科学家发明这些频接收机听到不明飞行物和外星人，但是他们所得到的答案非心中所想的一样。Pastor Louie 透过科学家的研究后，发现这些遥远的星星都在不断地发出声音，因此去研究这些奥秘。Ipad的功能，可以把许多的歌都容纳进出一个相同的软件。结果，研究是令人出乎预料！
弟兄姐妹，知道我们一直以来的开口赞美的那位神是怎样的神吗？
知不知道我们一直都在跟宇宙的万物，星宿敬拜着那位至高至圣的耶和华？
当天国的门打开以后，我们都会跟它们一同敬拜、赞美和歌颂主耶和华啊！弟兄姐妹，知道我们一直以来的开口赞美的那位神是怎样的神吗？
知不知道我们一直都在跟宇宙的万物，星宿敬拜着那位至高至圣的耶和华？
上帝创造的宇宙是超乎我们人所有限的想象能力，无法测量他的测度。
因神的荣美无法描述，我们口舌难以形容，但是要记住这个最重要的事：
圣父、圣子、圣灵：他爱你！:-D
Verses :
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. (Ecclesiastes 3:11)
神造萬物，各按其時成為美好，又將永生（原文是永遠）安置在世人心裡。然而 神從始至終的作為，人不能參透。（传道书 3：11）
Tuesday, 15 November 2011
The Best Healer - Jehovah Rophe
Thank GOD for providing such consolation.
My lovely Shepherd, is your heart aching?
Thanks for your compassion on mankind and even me. :')
What else could forbid me not to love You?
What else could sew my lauding mouth off for you?
Who else could be the first in my heart except You?
Who else could crucify on the cross for mankind except You?
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?
As the Bible is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
Encountering You, is the most wonderful that I've had for You're the one who inspires me the most. :-D
As the Bible is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
Encountering You, is the most wonderful that I've had for You're the one who inspires me the most. :-D
Friday, 11 November 2011
The Vine & The Branches - A Fruitful Disciple
*Gardener = GOD ,
*The Vine = Jesus ,
*The Branches = Disciples of Jesus ,
*Fruit = Our Life
Dear brothers & sisters in Christ, when we confront a lot of issues / afflictions in our life without understanding the reason, we’ll blame on GOD & ask Him for the reason.
But do we know Jesus will cry for us while we’re harmed?
What if GOD doesn’t prune us?
Can we still bear much fruit if we don’t remain in Jesus?
We do abide in Jesus like the parable of Vine and Branches. Additionally, Jesus is our best friend, He could understand us since He was sacrificed himself & crucified on the cross for us.
God prunes us because He wants us to be a testimony through our personalities, words & attitudes,
* Based on John 15: 1 - 17 from the Bible. *
Tuesday, 18 October 2011
The Vicissitude of Mankind's Heart.
Something has struck a heartstrings of mine and my heartstrings keeps dedicating for it.
But my heartstrings is time to stop playing.
People might be wondering it swiftly changed somehow.
All the while, you'll never know how much your words hurt me indirectly,
perhaps you don't even know you did. And I perceived our paces are different anymore.
Is your love just as shallow as a swimming pool?
Do you desire of fame & gold much than GOD?
How long didn't you intimate with Him?
People always say : "the vicissitude of the world is just a blink of an eye."
but a mankind's heart shifts faster than the world.
For GOD's sake, I withdrew, being a single and I'm indeed inappropriate to get into a relationship
even till now. But my heart does keep going on. Unfortunately, you don't.
Where is my splendid smile?
I believe it will be appearing in front of everybody very soon. :')
At this moment, I would rather obey GOD as well.
It seems like there is full of regrets from the way I wrote.
What I'm expressing is there might be sorrowful but undoubtedly I have no regrets and even full of gratitudes.
But my heartstrings is time to stop playing.
People might be wondering it swiftly changed somehow.
All the while, you'll never know how much your words hurt me indirectly,
perhaps you don't even know you did. And I perceived our paces are different anymore.
Is your love just as shallow as a swimming pool?
Do you desire of fame & gold much than GOD?
How long didn't you intimate with Him?
People always say : "the vicissitude of the world is just a blink of an eye."
but a mankind's heart shifts faster than the world.
For GOD's sake, I withdrew, being a single and I'm indeed inappropriate to get into a relationship
even till now. But my heart does keep going on. Unfortunately, you don't.
Where is my splendid smile?
I believe it will be appearing in front of everybody very soon. :')
At this moment, I would rather obey GOD as well.
It seems like there is full of regrets from the way I wrote.
What I'm expressing is there might be sorrowful but undoubtedly I have no regrets and even full of gratitudes.
- I really thank God so much, this relationship was ended up before the thing gets worsen.
- I do believe His blessings will fall on me.
- I could be a better and more obedient disciple of Jesus through this lesson.
Wednesday, 5 October 2011
The Choice
Something quite new that I never felt & experienced before.
But I wonder is that great for me?
Some questions had been appearing on my mind as:
" Is that all my fault? "
" Is all the misunderstanding caused by my past transgressions? "
And the truth tells me, "YES, it is."
I was a person who didn't peer with GOD consistently,
a person who didn't care people's feelings while I spoke,
a person who were indeed self-abased.
a person who had grabbed for own attention.
a person who liked to scramble achievements / fame.
etc.....
Because I was really ego.
For now I thank GOD, He has been leading me towards a path of eternal life.
Let me see my inner & my sins more clearly in day by day.
Thus, I decided to work for Him, even shine for Him as well
no matter how difficult / rough the issues I will confront in the future.
I'm trying to make a change in any aspects with GOD's words and
keep moving forward for GOD's word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.
I'm grateful for everything He has done for me, making my life brighter and fruitful.
I have made a breakthrough !
However, this is the beginning of a nightmare.
Perhaps people's heart were already carved about what I had done,
perhaps they had tolerated me, advised, tried to persuade me for countless times.
So they could not see the renew of mine for temporary? I don't know, it's a hesitation.
Once I wanna do something for Lord, they doubt my motive.
Once I wish to peer with my treasured sheep, they distort my purpose.
How can it be? How come they don't understand me?
Gimme some oxygen? I'm obviously lacking of it and it makes me gonna asphyxiate.
I know everything needs time to make clear, but I perceived my existence is never reduce
you guys' prejudice unto me. All of you doubt my personality even.
It really makes me feel gonna burst because there is full of self-blame in the bottom of my heart.
What I wanna express is you'll feel helpless and disappointed when people who surround you
totally misunderstand what you're actually doing.
In a glance of an eye, my Bible appeared in front of my eyes,
I automatically picked it up and spoke to Him before browsing :
"My Father in heaven, how precious to me are your thoughts,
how vast is the sum of them."
the LORD declares:
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,
As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
I shall obey your thoughts and not to obey mine.
LORD, how should I make a choice among these both questions,
Shall I withdraw? To stay or to leave? *mind struggling*
If I stay, I could still be with my sheeps and lead them to be a disciple of yours.
If I leave, I could step forward to another realm to serve you as well.
Yet I guarantee I'll undoubtedly obey your guidance & never abandon you,
because I'm joyful to be with you. :-)
But I wonder is that great for me?
Some questions had been appearing on my mind as:
" Is that all my fault? "
" Is all the misunderstanding caused by my past transgressions? "
And the truth tells me, "YES, it is."
I was a person who didn't peer with GOD consistently,
a person who didn't care people's feelings while I spoke,
a person who were indeed self-abased.
a person who had grabbed for own attention.
a person who liked to scramble achievements / fame.
etc.....
Because I was really ego.
For now I thank GOD, He has been leading me towards a path of eternal life.
Let me see my inner & my sins more clearly in day by day.
Thus, I decided to work for Him, even shine for Him as well
no matter how difficult / rough the issues I will confront in the future.
I'm trying to make a change in any aspects with GOD's words and
keep moving forward for GOD's word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.
I'm grateful for everything He has done for me, making my life brighter and fruitful.
I have made a breakthrough !
However, this is the beginning of a nightmare.
Perhaps people's heart were already carved about what I had done,
perhaps they had tolerated me, advised, tried to persuade me for countless times.
So they could not see the renew of mine for temporary? I don't know, it's a hesitation.
Once I wanna do something for Lord, they doubt my motive.
Once I wish to peer with my treasured sheep, they distort my purpose.
How can it be? How come they don't understand me?
Gimme some oxygen? I'm obviously lacking of it and it makes me gonna asphyxiate.
I know everything needs time to make clear, but I perceived my existence is never reduce
you guys' prejudice unto me. All of you doubt my personality even.
It really makes me feel gonna burst because there is full of self-blame in the bottom of my heart.
What I wanna express is you'll feel helpless and disappointed when people who surround you
totally misunderstand what you're actually doing.
In a glance of an eye, my Bible appeared in front of my eyes,
I automatically picked it up and spoke to Him before browsing :
"My Father in heaven, how precious to me are your thoughts,
how vast is the sum of them."
the LORD declares:
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,
As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
I shall obey your thoughts and not to obey mine.
LORD, how should I make a choice among these both questions,
Shall I withdraw? To stay or to leave? *mind struggling*
If I stay, I could still be with my sheeps and lead them to be a disciple of yours.
If I leave, I could step forward to another realm to serve you as well.
Yet I guarantee I'll undoubtedly obey your guidance & never abandon you,
because I'm joyful to be with you. :-)
Saturday, 1 October 2011
唏嘘却喜乐
事物虽已过境迁，
为何吾心仍挂牵？
所有错误已从我这里落幕，
我决定再不占据你的篇幅，
因为那天起一切早已结束。
虽然这段恋情是铭心刻骨，
当你的悲喜有了容身之处，
我依然会深深地给予祝福。
神依然会引领咱们的前路直永久！
我并不奢望你会知道我有部落格。
也许永远都无人会阅读此文章，由于我是故意将此文章放到后面。
但是有些事情我一直收藏在心里，我从来都没有告诉你，
因为我没有这个勇气让你知道在我内心深处的感想，
也许你知道后会令你感到折磨/亏欠/愧疚/埋怨自己/无奈。
我只盼望你过得很好，无牵挂。
所以倘若有一天你与此文章有缘份，我相信是你应该知道的时候临到了。
你曾告诉我：“你的出现是我往后选择配偶的标准。”
所以在此，
我惟有藉着这个唯一的管道向你表明心迹。
我是真心要感谢你，
若非上帝安排你的出现，我根本不知道我一直以来都忽略了我的父母。
若非曾看见你的状况，我根本都不晓得自己的情绪会令身边周遭的人感到难受。
你的出现，使我深深明白与了解自己原来可以喜欢一个人那么深，那么久。
即使我们已久没见面了，对你的思念根本就未曾停止。
即使你诉苦/你的缺点一直在我眼前显露而出时，我都可以忍耐你，包容你，接纳你。
我没想过即使听见你心仪另人而受伤至崩溃后，曾经对你所起的涟漪至今仍然在波动。
一直以来，我都活在一种恐惧内，害怕自己是用情不专，利用朋友的关心，etc.......
你的存在，让我完全地看见自己可以很真诚地对待家人、朋友、异族同胞、你。
甚至，上帝。
你知道吗？选择与你了断这段感情，目前是我一生中感到非常残酷又辛苦，甚至挣扎的决定。
因为我发掘一件真相：我真的很喜欢你而且不是盲目地喜欢你。
我猜我的决定会令你感到很沮丧，甚至觉得我非常狠心又自私。
可是再次诚实地告诉你，
就是因为我的自私，所以选择跟你开始这段恋情，在那当儿我希望可以透过上帝跟我的关系去改变你，但我完全误解了上帝的旨意。
并非我的自私跟你分手，我真的是为你与神的关系着想，一方面也是遵照神的启迪。
并不是你不帅，不成熟或者很多缺点，而是：
我希望你的灵命是可以独立思考上帝的话语。
同时，
我不希望往后我会成为你的压力，一直都是我的意见，会造成我认识你的障碍。
虽然我不晓得是否上帝拣选你成为我以后的伴侣，但我很肯定现在并不是时候。
但愿以后我们各自的恋情，不是为了填补自己的缺爱和对爱的渴慕在一起，
而是预备好自己的心思意念，已经在单身是被上帝塑造成一个可以祝福和成全伴侣的器皿。
所以至今仍坚定于神的指引，决定是对的。
你的存在，是上帝让我成长，陶造我的过程。
这段感情虽短如一瞬间，可是却令我的待人处事、情绪管理、为人设想改进了很多。
我终于可以独立地去面对自己的问题，勇于接纳自己的短缺。
而且，在上帝的话语上扎实了很多，渐渐地了解基督，
耶稣的话语深触我心，关系越来越亲密。
原来我最爱和最需要的还是上帝、耶稣和圣灵，我愿一生效法基督。
让我们一起效法基督的样式吧！
为何吾心仍挂牵？
所有错误已从我这里落幕，
我决定再不占据你的篇幅，
因为那天起一切早已结束。
虽然这段恋情是铭心刻骨，
当你的悲喜有了容身之处，
我依然会深深地给予祝福。
神依然会引领咱们的前路直永久！
我并不奢望你会知道我有部落格。
也许永远都无人会阅读此文章，由于我是故意将此文章放到后面。
但是有些事情我一直收藏在心里，我从来都没有告诉你，
因为我没有这个勇气让你知道在我内心深处的感想，
也许你知道后会令你感到折磨/亏欠/愧疚/埋怨自己/无奈。
我只盼望你过得很好，无牵挂。
所以倘若有一天你与此文章有缘份，我相信是你应该知道的时候临到了。
你曾告诉我：“你的出现是我往后选择配偶的标准。”
所以在此，
我惟有藉着这个唯一的管道向你表明心迹。
我是真心要感谢你，
若非上帝安排你的出现，我根本不知道我一直以来都忽略了我的父母。
若非曾看见你的状况，我根本都不晓得自己的情绪会令身边周遭的人感到难受。
你的出现，使我深深明白与了解自己原来可以喜欢一个人那么深，那么久。
即使我们已久没见面了，对你的思念根本就未曾停止。
即使你诉苦/你的缺点一直在我眼前显露而出时，我都可以忍耐你，包容你，接纳你。
我没想过即使听见你心仪另人而受伤至崩溃后，曾经对你所起的涟漪至今仍然在波动。
一直以来，我都活在一种恐惧内，害怕自己是用情不专，利用朋友的关心，etc.......
你的存在，让我完全地看见自己可以很真诚地对待家人、朋友、异族同胞、你。
甚至，上帝。
你知道吗？选择与你了断这段感情，目前是我一生中感到非常残酷又辛苦，甚至挣扎的决定。
因为我发掘一件真相：我真的很喜欢你而且不是盲目地喜欢你。
我猜我的决定会令你感到很沮丧，甚至觉得我非常狠心又自私。
可是再次诚实地告诉你，
就是因为我的自私，所以选择跟你开始这段恋情，在那当儿我希望可以透过上帝跟我的关系去改变你，但我完全误解了上帝的旨意。
并非我的自私跟你分手，我真的是为你与神的关系着想，一方面也是遵照神的启迪。
并不是你不帅，不成熟或者很多缺点，而是：
- 上帝在你心中的地位无形中被我占据了
- 我拦住了你与上帝建立关系的时刻
- 咱们在信仰的认识上有些差距，而且太多不同的观点
- 我们相信三位一体之真神，可是却抱负着不同的异象
- 时间点不适合，由于在那时我跟你的异象都不清晰。
- 我很享受跟你交流的时间，但其实我更渴望可以与你和上帝一同交流的时刻。
- 我们彼此没有足够的成熟度去分担对方的困难，协助他/她解决问题。
- 感情的基础并不完全是仅于感觉，而是彼此的认识。（如同我们与神的关系，神先爱我们，而且我们对耶稣存有爱是因为我们认识他的属性。）反之，我们彼此的认识真的不够深厚。
我希望你的灵命是可以独立思考上帝的话语。
同时，
我不希望往后我会成为你的压力，一直都是我的意见，会造成我认识你的障碍。
虽然我不晓得是否上帝拣选你成为我以后的伴侣，但我很肯定现在并不是时候。
但愿以后我们各自的恋情，不是为了填补自己的缺爱和对爱的渴慕在一起，
而是预备好自己的心思意念，已经在单身是被上帝塑造成一个可以祝福和成全伴侣的器皿。
所以至今仍坚定于神的指引，决定是对的。
你的存在，是上帝让我成长，陶造我的过程。
这段感情虽短如一瞬间，可是却令我的待人处事、情绪管理、为人设想改进了很多。
我终于可以独立地去面对自己的问题，勇于接纳自己的短缺。
而且，在上帝的话语上扎实了很多，渐渐地了解基督，
耶稣的话语深触我心，关系越来越亲密。
原来我最爱和最需要的还是上帝、耶稣和圣灵，我愿一生效法基督。
让我们一起效法基督的样式吧！
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
敞开心扉，领受恩典。
YO! I'm eventually back !
别问我为何写华语，我只是心血来潮。
好了，开场白完毕！进入正题。。。
相信认识我的都晓得从九月16-18日，我去了营会。
地点：Nur Bukit Unggul *我不知道如何去，想知详情敬请游览网站* XP
LORD 上帝: 天上万军之耶和华，我要赞美你！因您的荣美无法描述，口舌难以形容。因您的计划实在是太奇妙了。
营会前
营会前一个星期，遭遇许多属灵争战和攻击，特别是在家庭上，在营会的前两天（14/9）我竟然发现家人又再一次跌入撒旦的引诱，令我难以接受看见身边最亲的人一直堕落。同时，我对上帝的信心开始动摇，心里询问神：“为什么他没改变，反而令我难以尊重他？您的作为何时彰显？您是否不拣选他，任凭他如此过活他的一生呢？”*在我的潜意识里早已埋怨神*
（15/9）因此我的精神就快崩溃、心力交瘁，根本就力不从心。但我仍然隐藏自己的苦毒不向任何人倾诉，由于营会就快到来，避免人心惶惶的情况出现。可是到了凌晨，我看见她们都睡觉，而我却难以入眠 - Insomnia
心里开始担心因自己的问题未解决而影响营会里整个的筹备，顿时一句金文漂浮在我脑海中：“应当一无挂虑，只要凡事借着祷告、祈求和感谢，将你所要的告诉神。神所赐出人意外的平安必在基督耶稣里保守你的心怀意念。”虽然当时我不晓得上帝要透过什么事情启迪我，不过因为这个应许，因此我很快就已入眠了。
营会第一天（16/9）
早晨，也就是营会的第一天。带着一颗沉重的心去灵修与神亲近。往往就在宁静，让自己沉思的时刻，才可以聆听上帝那轻柔的声音：“我已看见他所行的道（罪孽），我却要医治他，引导他，把安慰赏赐他和他的哀悼者。”Isaiah 57，我的信心再次被上帝的话语变得更坚固。当时不禁然地流泪，心存感恩。
深深体会到，向神承认自己的信心不足并不是一件羞愧之事。反之，在人的软弱，谦卑放下自己倚靠耶和华的大能大力，才可以彰显出上帝的荣耀与作为。不轻易掉入恶者的网络！
心意被更新变化后，我就立即穿上神所赐的全副军装、戴上救恩的头盔、拿起圣灵的宝剑（神的道）与那些執政的、掌權的、管轄這幽暗世界的，以及天空屬靈氣的惡魔争战！
抵达营地
林震芳传道、向威导师、泗豪、崇彦、伊君（找不到“王”字部）、愈恩和本人在中午12点已抵达目的地为要做场地清洁的祷告。在这之前，林传道召集我们做个 Briefing，与我们分享关于耶稣在逾越节时所行的仪式。其实上帝设立是因着人的软弱而设立仪式，耶和华晓得人心。人往往难以在抽象的情况下仍持有对他的信心，所以设立仪式为要：
大概两点左右，一辆巴士到来 *appearing in my sight*. 原来营员们已经抵达了。
随后我立刻去拿四艘船（四组）的船旗，才发现我们万事俱备，只欠东风。
除了布料和旗杆以外，原来我们没有准备任何的材料给他们。我的心开始慌张起来，
心跳快速达 130 ！心想：“都以成事实，死就死吧！”
沿路上，走向宿舍时，我不知觉地把头抬高，仰望上帝所创造的大自然，那浩瀚的宇宙、一片蓝白的天空云采、小鸟正在自由地翱翔。
心里想起，“倘若没有耶稣基督从他那里拿出一支钥匙，把我心中的枷锁解开，就不会得释放也不能够体会何谓在基督里真正的自由。就如一只井底之蛙，永远都不会知道上帝在这井底外所创造的一切是多么美妙。”然而，我就凭信心去行！
回到宿舍，以最快的速度用眼睛探索周围的环境，相信他们凭着上帝所栽种的花草树木，一定可以成功地把船旗完成。然后我便把我手上的布料与旗杆，分别给四组的船长，并且告诉他们各自去搜索材料。
本人一瞥四艘船各自正在设计、制作自己的旗时，已经察觉他们非常投入，
然后当我专心注目看每艘船的状况是，令我感到实在意外，他们的确突破了心中“搞党”的障碍，与不同生活背景、甚至不认识的组员，同心讨论。
果真，在这无材料限制（自由）的情况下，更显得每艘船都可以引用大自然的材料来表达各船的特色。同时也一瞬间促进了彼此之间的友谊。
材料就如同枷锁，一旦把枷锁解开，反而另他们可以发挥自己的潜能。
同样地，当我们愿意让耶稣解开我们心中的枷锁，反而可以享受那基督里真正的自由。
不再受世俗的重担以及缠累我们的罪孽捆绑！
直接跳去晚上
晚上7点直7点50分，下着一场倾盆大雨、雷电交加，根本就无法进行“夜洋之战”。所有筹委都担心我们精心设计游戏背后的寓意因着下雨的缘故，而不能把完整的福音传达于这班营员，唯有凭着信心继续向神呼求。
信息后（8.10pm），神迹出现，雨立刻停止了。一切都可以顺利进行，感谢赞美主！^_^
当然还有很多，但由于本人目前的精神仍然欠佳，所以在此搁“笔”。
别问我为何写华语，我只是心血来潮。
好了，开场白完毕！进入正题。。。
相信认识我的都晓得从九月16-18日，我去了营会。
地点：Nur Bukit Unggul *我不知道如何去，想知详情敬请游览网站* XP
我的心扉
营会前
营会前一个星期，遭遇许多属灵争战和攻击，特别是在家庭上，在营会的前两天（14/9）我竟然发现家人又再一次跌入撒旦的引诱，令我难以接受看见身边最亲的人一直堕落。同时，我对上帝的信心开始动摇，心里询问神：“为什么他没改变，反而令我难以尊重他？您的作为何时彰显？您是否不拣选他，任凭他如此过活他的一生呢？”*在我的潜意识里早已埋怨神*
（15/9）因此我的精神就快崩溃、心力交瘁，根本就力不从心。但我仍然隐藏自己的苦毒不向任何人倾诉，由于营会就快到来，避免人心惶惶的情况出现。可是到了凌晨，我看见她们都睡觉，而我却难以入眠 - Insomnia
心里开始担心因自己的问题未解决而影响营会里整个的筹备，顿时一句金文漂浮在我脑海中：“应当一无挂虑，只要凡事借着祷告、祈求和感谢，将你所要的告诉神。神所赐出人意外的平安必在基督耶稣里保守你的心怀意念。”虽然当时我不晓得上帝要透过什么事情启迪我，不过因为这个应许，因此我很快就已入眠了。
营会第一天（16/9）
早晨，也就是营会的第一天。带着一颗沉重的心去灵修与神亲近。往往就在宁静，让自己沉思的时刻，才可以聆听上帝那轻柔的声音：“我已看见他所行的道（罪孽），我却要医治他，引导他，把安慰赏赐他和他的哀悼者。”Isaiah 57，我的信心再次被上帝的话语变得更坚固。当时不禁然地流泪，心存感恩。
深深体会到，向神承认自己的信心不足并不是一件羞愧之事。反之，在人的软弱，谦卑放下自己倚靠耶和华的大能大力，才可以彰显出上帝的荣耀与作为。不轻易掉入恶者的网络！
心意被更新变化后，我就立即穿上神所赐的全副军装、戴上救恩的头盔、拿起圣灵的宝剑（神的道）与那些執政的、掌權的、管轄這幽暗世界的，以及天空屬靈氣的惡魔争战！
抵达营地
林震芳传道、向威导师、泗豪、崇彦、伊君（找不到“王”字部）、愈恩和本人在中午12点已抵达目的地为要做场地清洁的祷告。在这之前，林传道召集我们做个 Briefing，与我们分享关于耶稣在逾越节时所行的仪式。其实上帝设立是因着人的软弱而设立仪式，耶和华晓得人心。人往往难以在抽象的情况下仍持有对他的信心，所以设立仪式为要：
- 纪念耶稣-时时提醒自己
- 坚固信心
- 体验神的存在
大概两点左右，一辆巴士到来 *appearing in my sight*. 原来营员们已经抵达了。
随后我立刻去拿四艘船（四组）的船旗，才发现我们万事俱备，只欠东风。
除了布料和旗杆以外，原来我们没有准备任何的材料给他们。我的心开始慌张起来，
心跳快速达 130 ！心想：“都以成事实，死就死吧！”
沿路上，走向宿舍时，我不知觉地把头抬高，仰望上帝所创造的大自然，那浩瀚的宇宙、一片蓝白的天空云采、小鸟正在自由地翱翔。
心里想起，“倘若没有耶稣基督从他那里拿出一支钥匙，把我心中的枷锁解开，就不会得释放也不能够体会何谓在基督里真正的自由。就如一只井底之蛙，永远都不会知道上帝在这井底外所创造的一切是多么美妙。”然而，我就凭信心去行！
回到宿舍，以最快的速度用眼睛探索周围的环境，相信他们凭着上帝所栽种的花草树木，一定可以成功地把船旗完成。然后我便把我手上的布料与旗杆，分别给四组的船长，并且告诉他们各自去搜索材料。
本人一瞥四艘船各自正在设计、制作自己的旗时，已经察觉他们非常投入，
然后当我专心注目看每艘船的状况是，令我感到实在意外，他们的确突破了心中“搞党”的障碍，与不同生活背景、甚至不认识的组员，同心讨论。
果真，在这无材料限制（自由）的情况下，更显得每艘船都可以引用大自然的材料来表达各船的特色。同时也一瞬间促进了彼此之间的友谊。
材料就如同枷锁，一旦把枷锁解开，反而另他们可以发挥自己的潜能。
同样地，当我们愿意让耶稣解开我们心中的枷锁，反而可以享受那基督里真正的自由。
不再受世俗的重担以及缠累我们的罪孽捆绑！
直接跳去晚上
晚上7点直7点50分，下着一场倾盆大雨、雷电交加，根本就无法进行“夜洋之战”。所有筹委都担心我们精心设计游戏背后的寓意因着下雨的缘故，而不能把完整的福音传达于这班营员，唯有凭着信心继续向神呼求。
信息后（8.10pm），神迹出现，雨立刻停止了。一切都可以顺利进行，感谢赞美主！^_^
*After The War of Night Ocean*
这就是证据 Evidence lah~当然还有很多，但由于本人目前的精神仍然欠佳，所以在此搁“笔”。
感言
神啊，我要一心称谢你。
你是至高无上，永远长存，可是你却说：
“虽然我住在至高至圣之处，却与心灵痛悔和谦卑的人同在，
要使谦卑与痛悔的人苏醒。”
感谢您在 2006年5月27日，藉着您的慈爱浇灌和软化我的心，
使我成为你的儿女，一天新似一天，被你改造。
主啊，倘若我潇潇洒洒度过人生却无法享受神的同在，
我的王，
我宁可风风雨雨有你作伴，跟随主踪！
阿门！:)
Monday, 19 September 2011
Thursday, 18 August 2011
After Every Hurricane Comes A Rainbow.
We pray for blessings,
We pray for healing,
We pray for your mighty hand to ease our afflictions.
But,
We'll be exasperated while our prayers or desperate plea are not be heard,
We cry in anger while we cannot feel your presence,
We'll be exasperated while our prayers or desperate plea are not be heard,
We cry in anger while we cannot feel your presence,
We doubt your love
What if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you're near?
What if trials of this life?
What if my greatest disappointments were the aching of this life,
is there revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy?
Meanwhile, You promised us,
"Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,"
says the LORD who has compassion on you. (Isaiah 54:10)
O LORD,
Your promise deeply carved in my heart and I bear it on my mind tightly.
Your promise preserves my life, that's all what my comfort in my suffering.
Your love satisfy me, there is no others of my desire.
I'd rather to experience you with every hurricane,
for I know I could stand firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
To believe the LORD will peer with me, I shall have faith in you. :-)
Literally, my spiritual life shall establish & be rooted in your promises,
so my faith will not be shaken nor removed easily.
Therefore,
I patiently wait for your grace comes,
because those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Friday, 21 January 2011
Charlie St. Cloud starring Zac Efron
< Charlie St. Cloud >
I'm obviously advertising this movie,
so it's undoubtedly a fabulous & a fascinating movie for me.
Synopsis: Based on an acclaimed novel, Charlie St. Cloud is a romantic drama starring Zac Efron as a young man who fortunately survives in a tragic accident that lets him see the world in a unique way. Charlie struggles hardly between honoring a promise that he made four years earlier with his little brother named Sam and moving forward with unexpected newfound love. What will he determine to?
In my opinion, Zac Efron is hilarious and he is absolutely passionate in acting, singing and dancing.
Besides, he is a remarkable actor because his acting technique is natural and vivd.
*chuckling* Undeniably, he is glamorous and handsome.
Sunday, 13 June 2010
Toy Story 3
If someone asks:" Does anyone like Toy Story?" I will be the first to hoist my right hand up and answer immediately, " I DO, my beloved Toy Story. How fabulous it is ! "
Toy Story 3,
It's a comedy as everyone knows this movie.
I have been waiting it since I know it'll show in theaters in 2010.
Whatever problems, I must watch it.
No one can forbid me to theater, even money. I'm already addicted and fall in love in Toy Story. I wanna post the synopsis here right now because I bought a novel of Toy Story 3. *smiles* I'm lost self-control so pardon me for advertising it.
Toy Story's Synopsis:
Nowadays, Andy has grown up, he prepares to depart for college any day. Woody, Buzz Lightyear and the rest of Andy's toys don't know what will happen to them about their uncertain future. Woody wants to stay at Andy's, tucked away safely in the attic, but the toys can't imagine a life without playtime. Most of them have ever thought they're being abandoned and getting thrown away by their owner. It's pandemonium as they try to stay along, then the toys are about to have their most amazing adventure yet. Their adventure starts once they realize the Daycare is full of abusive kids, now they must escape for saving themselves from the evil toys and abusive kids.
For now, I want to tell you all about my thought...
*starts*
The character I like the most is the cowboy named Woody,
Woody is an optimist.
What he made me appreciate is his loyalty,
I could see this way from every episode.
Because of his loyalty,
so he is the only one who reads what's on Andy mind.
and never been disappointed in Andy even.
Furthermore, Woody is an optimist,
for he has been encouraging his buddies
when they are depressed or think desperately.
At last, he is helpful & treats his friends seriously.
For examples,
"In Toy Story 3,
Before leaving Daycare, Woody was teased and
disregarded by his friends.
Woody escapes successfully from Daycare and
finds a fabulous owner who named Bonnie,
but he determines to return for rescuing his friends."
Actually all of them are being Andy's friends in his heart and
it'll never be changed because the heart is still remain.
The toys are meant to Andy so much.
Woody does anything with faith & hopes always. *ends*
I've gained a lot of things through this character in Toy Story.
So these are reasons why I appreciate it so much.
The conclusion of mine is Toy Story is a meaningful show
and I think it'll be so vivid in 3D. :-D
Buzz exclaims it always when he's going to reach for the sky.
" To infinity... and beyond. "
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